im completely over you, but id like for it to happen again. i dont want to think or talk or connect mentally…but fuck! and you, you were a mistake, im glad i could go away and avoid everything and not have to explain; and im sure you understand how i feel, which is good because i dont really want to talk about it. you, good sir, make things complicated, but it shouldnt be, and im not going to let myself do this to me or anyone else. as for you, or you, id like things to work. that would make me so happy. but im glad i have you while i bide my time awaiting my chance for someone else.
is something really always better than nothing? is a someone there always better than a no one number one but a crowd of insignificance following?
i want a YOU, not a wave of yous all tangled up in my own self-doubt.
